Friday, May 31, 2013

Week 19 weigh in

Happy Friday all.  It is another weigh in day for me and I am happy to say I lost more than one pound this week.  I lost a whole whopping 2lbs for a total of 56  down.  I am hopeful next week will bring me to the 180's because I weighed in this morning at 190 lbs.  I feel like the 190s have taken forever to get through. 

I am off today because I work tomorrow and I have some errands I need to do.  I am also going to do a little shopping today.  I am starting to run out of clothes because the last time I was this size it was winter.  I am also losing weight differently this time and my clothes don't fit the same.

On the eating front, I have changed some things this week.  I had gotten a little lazy with my eating and was drinking.  I love wine... a lot.  I have been drinking wine a lot.  It kills the weight loss.  So... at least for the next week I am going to continue with my strict eating and wine free plan.  I have a friend coming into town next Friday and I haven't seen her in a long time... I can't lie... there will be drinking.  However, until then I am dedicated to stay strong.

When I hit the 60 lbs down mark I will update my full body shots.  Take care all and enjoy your weekend.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Week 18 Weigh In

Ugh... I am getting frustrated.  I worked very hard stepping up my work outs and eating perfectly all week.  At one point I had a 4 lbs gain.  I finished out the week exactly 1 lb down.  That puts me at a total of 54 lbs down in 18 weeks.  I am starting to get a little discouraged.  My losses have been 1 lb for the last 3 weeks.  I expected a much better week this week.  O well, it is still going down.

I had my 3 month post op with my surgeon this week (though I am more like 4ish months post op).  He was very pleased and said I looked great and was doing great.  I told him I was frustrated by my rate of loss and he said that unfortunately, revisions are much tougher than first precedures.  He said there is more struggle with consecutive surgeries but that I am still very successful and should be pleased.  I am down 68 lbs from my highest weight pre band and that is fantastic.  If I continue to lose 1 lb a week I will still make my goal by my one year anniversary.  I have to just keep plugging away!

Happy Friday!  Have a safe and enjoyable holiday weekend!

Friday, May 17, 2013

Week 17

It is week 17 and I lost another 1 lb this week.  It seems like things have really slowed for me and that means I need to get more serious about my weight loss.  I am going to try to crank up the work outs and be religious about my eating this week.  I would like another 3 lb week  There is no question my eating has been less than amazing the past couple weeks.  I am terrific during the week but then it falls apart on the weekends.  No excuses this week.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Week 16 Weigh In

It is week 16 and I had a big whopping loss of 1 lb this week.  That brings me to a grand total of 52 lbs.  I have been thinking a lot about my weight loss lately.  First off, I am still 30 lbs heavier than my lowest Lap Band low.  I am also 50% less motivated this time around.  I was religious about exercise and much more cautious about my eating.  I just don't have the desire or energy to be that anal this time.  I feel like I am living my life and losing the weight on the side.  Before I was losing the weight and living my life when it fit in.  Don't get me wrong, I am still very active in my weight loss and have to work at it to keep it going.  However, I don't make every decision based on the impact on my weight loss. 

Last night I worked until 9 pm.  My husband called me and told me he was meeting some friends for drinks at 8:30 and asked if I could meet them after I got off work.  I had eaten perfectly that day, had 900 calories, got all my protein...and for one second I thought about how I didn't want to "screw up" my perfect day.  But then I thought about how much I wanted to enjoy the company of these people and have a drink.  So I did... I had a drink ate a few fries and "messed up" my perfect day.  I am not really sure how many extra calories I had, and frankly I didn't care.  I had a good time.  This is why I will probably never be skinny.  I may never make my ultimate goal of 145 lbs, or at least take years to get there.  But I think I would rather live my life have some fun and eat "perfectly" 80% of the time instead.  If I really strapped down I could probably lose 3 lbs every single week.  I could be at my goal in 16 weeks.  But I know that isn't going to happen.  I know I enjoy food, enjoy social drinking, and I don't want to lose that.  That is the struggle.

This struggle is also why I love my sleeve.  I can't eat too much in one sitting, I can't get too out of control.  I am forced to check myself.  I am hoping for a bigger loss this coming week but thankful that the number continues to move down.

Friday, May 3, 2013

Week 15 Weigh In

Another great week for weight loss.  I lost 3 lbs this week!  I not only made it to the 50 lb down mark, I passed it with a bonus lb. I have also officially lost 50% of my excess weight (63% from my highest)!!  I have to admit, sometimes it is so hard to make good choices.  I have to tell myself over and over that it isn't worth it, I can have ______ some other time, I will be happy I didn't eat it when I step on the scale.  I love food, that will never change.

The weather is beautiful here and I have been enjoying walks with my dog.  It is amazing how much better I feel when the sun is out.  I think I am also more likely to make better food choices when the weather is nice.  I don't look for comfort as much.

Happy Friday, Keep fighting the good fight!