I drank and entire bottle of wine

and I enjoyed it. I also had homemade mac n' cheese, a little turkey burger, sweet potato soup, banana bread, and chocolate cake. Though all these things I had in very small amounts. This was the first "bad" indulge I have had since my banding. But you know what, I don't even feel bad about it. I walked five miles yesterday and took a kick boxing class today. I am back at it whole hog today. I had a really great time with my friends and I have zero guilt because this is my life, not a diet. How liberating!

Goodbye Forever 230's

I weighed myself this morning and have hit the 30 lb down mark. I lost 2.4 lbs this week! I am so excited to be 229 and no longer in the 230's!! Woohoo!! Can't wait to be in the 210's!

Happy Friday!

Vitamin Water 10 XXX is my new lover

I freak'n love Vitamin Water 10 XXX. It tastes SOOOOOOOO good. If you drink the entire bottle it is 25 calories but o so worth it. I try to limit myself to one per day but man... I love that stuff. I am working until 9 tonight and on the reference desk working with the public until close so I needed something to keep me awake and motivated, the XXX will do the trick.

Today I had my weekly visit with the therapist. I live him very much. He really appreciates where I am coming from and makes me feel like all my feelings are important. I always feel better when I leave there. So, I was feeling good when I left and decided I would go to Whole Foods on my way home and pick up some groceries. I decided I would get a rotisserie chicken and pull it all apart so I could eat it for lunch and dinner and the same the next day.

When I got home I pulled it apart, measured it out into servings and put it in the fridge. I had a couple hours before work and wanted to get in at least a half an hour work-out in. By the time I had worked out, showered, and gotten dressed for work I was running late. I needed to eat lunch so I pulled out a serving of chicken and started eating it. I haven't had any issues at all with not chewing well enough or anything else really.... until today's chicken. I was eating fast, not chewing well, and the chicken wasn't "wet" enough. I had three of four bites and then STUCK. It hurt so bad. It didn't take too long to pass (maybe 20 minutes) but oww the misery. I decided to add some gravy to the rest of my chicken and take it for dinner. I ate a Greek yogurt and some cheese once I got to work and all was fine.

Lesson learned, chew and take my time.

Sick, and the count down to my first fill

Yesterday I called in sick. I actually left work an hour early on Monday with a really sore throat. I figured I was just tired and would feel better by morning. Well when yesterday morning rolled around I did not feel better, I felt much much worse. So, I sucked it up and saw my doctor. I have an ear infection and was given some good antibiotics. I feel better today but still have a sore throat. Funny thing is, my ear never really hurt.

When I get sick I always want McDonald's. Those salty fries feel so good on my sore throat. I did not give in, and instead ate healthy and felt good about it. I even cooked myself lunch so I didn't settle for something less filling.

I have also officially gone down a size in my True Fit jeans. I have the same trouser jeans is 3, 4, and 5 red. I bought them as I was getting fatter, not as I was losing weight. Well, I started out in a tight 5 and am now in the 4s. They are still snug but the 5 was just ridiculous and huge. I haven't changed sizes in anything else yet, but this is still exciting.

I have six days until my first fill. I can't wait. I also get to start incorporating grain products on October 28th. I am feeling limited with my food right now and am looking forward to a change.

Happy Hump Day!

Weekend Report (AKA Weekend Confession)

I had a really great weekend. It was so much fun and I enjoyed spending time with my husband and my friends. I also enjoyed the eating part a little too much. Friday night my husband and I went bowling, we haven't been bowling in forever and it felt like a fun little high school date. He got a few beers and I considered getting a glass of wine but felt like I could do with out... and seriously.. who drinks wine at a bowling alley!

Saturday I worked and Jason (my husband) and I had planned to go out to dinner. I had already had some ideas where I wanted to go and had looked at menus so I could feel confident about my dinner. Well as soon as I got to work my friend Kim asked me to go to lunch with her. Of course I said yes and she let me pick due to my dietary restrictions. I ended up getting a small bowl of white chicken and bean chili.

Right before I left work my husband called and said we had been invited to go out to dinner with another couple. We decided on middle eastern food. So... I had good intentions, but when we actually got to the restaurant all those intentions fell to the wayside. My husband and I shared a meal. We ordered chicken kabobs with grilled veggies and a side of hummus. It also came with lentil soup, my favorite! I ate the lentil soup, then ate chicken drowning in hummus and garlic sauce and a bunch of veggies dipped in hummus and garlic sauce. In reality, this is good healthy food. There is some olive oil involved but chicken and hummus and lentils and veggies are good stuff. I just ate too much. I am not really sure how much... I am guessing a couple cups all together. I felt slightly guilty about this but got over it.
Friday I had worked out a lot and planned to do a good hard run on Sunday as well.

Sunday I slept in until almost 10 am. It was amazing. It felt so good. I got out of bed, got on my workout clothes, and hit the treadmill. I jogged for about 30 minutes and decided to follow it up with some kick boxing. I felt good about this and ate a really healthy practical lunch. My husband is a teacher and had lots of planning to do for the week so he was busy all day. I didn't feel like cooking, I cook every night, and we needed some groceries. I suggested we go to Plum Market ( a smaller cuter Whole Foods) and pick something up. Well, they have the most amazing hot bar. It is HUGE. I had been craving Indian food and they had a whole delicious section of the hot bar dedicated to Indian fare. So I picked up the little take-out box and put in a scoop of two different kinds of chicken, a chick pea dish, and couple small potatoes and carrots. It tasted incredible.

I don't really think I ate that bad, it is just the fact that I don't know how bad. Plus this Saturday we have a party. A group of couples and us do this monthly dinner party taking turns hosting. I know it will be amazing food and drink. Guess I will just have to exercise some more!

The weekend is always scary

I love the weekend, but I also dread the weekend. I feel like my eating is a little more out of control on the weekends because we go out to eat, have dinner with friends, or are just too busy to eat at home.

I am working today so I packed myself a good healthy meal for lunch. This always makes me feel better. Well, I got to work and one of my very good friends and co-worker asked me to go to lunch. My biggest issue with the Lap Band was that I wanted to maintain a normal life and not avoid social situations like I used to when I was on diets. I know that is not healthy and not sustainable. So, of course, I said yes. She told me I could pick the place since I still have dietary restrictions.

I picked a place, looked at the menu online, and decided on what I am going to eat. The problem is is that there are lots of really appealing things on the menu that I would love to eat but those would not be the best choices. I hope I can just stand firm on my food choice (white chicken bean chili).

Second problem is that my husband and I are going out to eat with another couple tonight. That means two meals out in one day. I may also drink. I can say that I won't but it all depends on how I am feeling at that time. I may want to indulge a bit. I have not indulged at all since my surgery (going on six weeks) and I want to live a little. Of course this is a dangerous path to walk. I don't want to get carried away, but I do want to live a little.

TGIF

I love Friday, especially when I don't work (like today). I have a doctors appointment this morning at 9:30 so I wanted to get my workout in before that. Anyway, today is weight in day and I am down another 2.8 lbs. I have also made it to my first 10%. So, now I am down a total of 27.4. My next goal is to get down to 225 lbs by my birthday on October 29th. That means I need to lose to 6.6 lbs get there.

Happy Friday all!