Holiday Worldwind... and I need a fill (story of my life)

I had a very busy, and mostly fun filled holiday weekend. We had my husband's step grandfather's viewing and funeral on Thursday and Friday.. I had to work Saturday, a family get-together on Sunday and spent yesterday at the beach. Whew... the time really flew by. It was nice to have Monday off so we could relax a bit.

I ate pretty bad on Sunday, but it seems to have all worked itself out as I didn't gain anything. I am still hovering around the same weight. Any restriction I once had was gone. The weird thing about this is the last time I was at this fill level I had okay restriction. On Sunday I ate a hot dog on a bun and a sloppy joe on a bun. No issues... oww... and I was drinking while eating (just call me a model bandster). It kind of freaks me out that I am not feeling anything. I am not sure if the unfill changed things for me and if it will take more fluid to get me to good restriction.

I have a fill on Thursday and I can't wait! I just hope he is willing to give me a good fill. Now I am going to try to catch up on all your blogs! Happy Tuesday.

Restriction, how I love thee.

First of all, I stumbled apon the picture which may have been my "last straw". I remember when I saw this picture of myself... I was wearing a sweater I thought was slimming (I guess cause it was black).. not so much. The picture next to it is my last update photo at 189. I am not weighing a few pounds less but nothing significant.

On to other news, I have actually been able to manage with much smaller portions for the past couple days. It feels incredible. The scale is back on its way down... only a half a pound or so... but hey those add up. I felt so good about my eating I started working out again today... did a good hour of step aerobics and felt amazing.

Unfortunately my husband's step-grandfather died today. It has been expected for some time now, he has been very ill for many years. We will be at the viewing on Thursday and the funeral on Friday. We aren't really that close to that side of the family, but I am sure it will still be stressful and emotional.

I am now counting down the days until my next fill... 9 as of today. I think (if my doctor is willing) I can get back to my sweet spot this fill. I was only there for about a month before I had my complete unfill. I barely got to enjoy it. I just want to get it back.

Take care all!

PB made my day!

I have NEVER been so happy to pb in my life. I was eating my salad today at lunch and noticed it was going down a little "rougher" than usual. So I slowed down but continued eating. All the sudden I took a bite and knew I was in trouble. I barely made it to the bathroom in time... the slime was so bad and then up it came.

Why does this make me so happy?! This is the first sign of restriction I have had in a month. It always takes me a little while to tighten up after a fill (usually about a week). Last night I was eating with no problem... today.. problems. I know I am not at my sweet spot and had already scheduled an appointment for another fill... but man, I am so glad to have some restriction! My next fill is July 8th and I wasn't sure how I would make it that long.

I have really been struggling to lose any weight at all and have pretty much just been maintaining. Hopefully now I can start to see that scale move down down down.

Happy Monday all!

Finally... a fill, restriction however.. I am not sure.

So today I saw my doctor for another fill. He gave me 1.5 ccs. That puts me at 4.5 ccs. When I was having trouble with my stomach a few weeks ago and he completely unfilled me I was at 5.25 ccs. I felt like I was sitting pretty in the green zone, minus those horrid stomach pains. I really wanted 2 ccs today but the doctor was afraid to fill me too quickly so I had to deal with 1.5. I am sure I will see a difference with this fill, however so far nothing to report. I am on liquids though and unless I am at my sweet spot I really can't tell with liquid. My fills also take about a week to kick in normally so I may not be able to tell until late next week.

I was up a few pounds and still hanging around 186, but I am okay with that. I have been back on track for the last week and that is all I need to get that weight back off. The liquids today will also help to jump start things again. I do need to start working out again. The only real exercise I have been doing is walking my dog and that really isn't that impressive. I did order the zumba fitness kit and can't wait to get that. I really don't have a lot of opportunities to take classes because my work schedule is crazy and ever changing.

I have a really fun weekend ahead. Friday we are going to a folk festival with some of our friends and out to dinner. I am sure I will do some drinking and hope not to do too much damage. We are also planning to spend a day at the beach which is my all time favorite thing to do in the summer!

Anyway, only one more day of the week before the weekend! Hope you all are doing well!

Summer Reading Sign Up

Monday was the first day of summer reading here at the library. Here is a picture from this year (on the left) and one from last year +75 lbs (on the right).

Tomorrow is my fill!! Can't wait! I have dropped some of the weight I gained but still up. My doctor is not going to be impressed! :)

Happy Wednesday!

First day of summer...

and I am really enjoying the summer weather, gardening, and hopefully beach soon. We have been having some really beautiful Michigan weather! Lots of sun and warm temps.. I am truly enjoying it. Actually, I just haven't had the time to blog because I have been out living my fabulous life.

I did talk to my doctor last Friday about my impending gallbladder doom. He said he looked at the ultrasounds and didn't feel like I really needed my gallbladder out right now. He said it certainly has stones but the fact that I haven't had many problems and that the stones have probably been there for a while... he thinks we should just wait. I LOVE this plan. I have had so many surgeries in the last couple years, I just don't feel like recovering again.

My weight is still up but I am working at it. I have an appointment for a fill on Thursday and hopefully this will get me back to my sweet sweet sweet spot. He isn't usually stingy about big fills so I have my fingers crossed.

I have to say... I am also really loving being much thinner this summer. I don't mind wearing warm weather clothes or participating in summer activities.. Wow, I forgot what that felt like.

Lastly, I wanted to say that I am still stopping in and reading everyones blogs... I just haven't been commenting. You are all doing amazing, even those of us who are having some bumps in our roads!

Up, Up, Up, and Hopefully Soon Away

I noticed a gaining trend in blogland lately. I am not sure if it is just because we have all been so busy... are tired of working at it and took a break... or like me have no restriction and have been eating things I shouldn't. I am up about 5 lbs in 3 weeks. I updated my ticker today because I needed to face the music.

I have been eating really good all day at work but then seem to blow it when I get home. I am just so hungry and haven't dealt with hunger like this in some time. My motivation is so far gone and I am tired of dieting (why I got the band). I will see my doctor a week from tomorrow (And hopefully get a big fat fill) and I am going to work really hard to get these 5 lbs back off in the next week.

We are dealing with some big family drama... my husband's grandmother is very ill and we have been driving to her house everyday (about an hour drive). We don't get home until late and often pick up something on the way home. Obviously I am not making the best choices. And, you know what, I am tired. When I am tired I don't want to have to think about making good choices. I just want to eat and go to bed.

And all of this sounds like a bunch of excuses. Time to face the music and get my crap back in line.