Weigh In

And I have a loss of 2 lbs to report. I am creeping up on the 160s! I am so pumped!

Back to therapy...

I am a therapy hopper. I never stay, but I always go back... to someone new. This time I am seeing a therapist who deals only with eating disorders and eating related issues. (ME) I decided to go back because the longer I am on this weight loss journey, the more challenging I am finding things. Not just the weight loss part... but the "who am I?" part. I am not having relationship issues, or having problems accepting the change... I just don't know what I want.

I don't see myself at my current weight... I see myself as fat. I don't know what I want to weigh because I think I will always want to lose more. Don't get me wrong, I feel so much better.... but I still don't know who this new body is.

I also have some other issues.... I still can't figure out what to do with that hole that eating has left. I still want to turn to eating for comfort... but I really can't anymore.. it just isn't possible. I have a lot of questions for myself that I just don't know how to ask... so I turn to the therapist. Here we go again!

Happy Tuesday!

Just a quick note..

To say that I finally got below that 176 mark. I am now at 174.8! I finally met another goal and feel great about it! I am hoping to be 173 by next Friday... should be doable but I seem to be losing very slow these days. All my clothes are way too big lately. I had to buy a couple pairs of pants to get me by for work. I think I am going to have my mom take in a couple of sheath dresses the next time my parents visit.

Tonight I am going to a big birthday party for a friend. I am looking forward to relaxing and having a good time. I really feel like I can so much better of a time now at my weight. It isn't something I am constantly thinking about and I feel confident (most of the time).

Anyway, I have been so busy, I haven't been a very good blog buddy. I hope you all are doing great!

Freak'n A!

Okay, I am back from my conference/speaking engagement/mini vacation. I had a good time, enjoyed my long weekend and so on. I came home, stepped on the scale... 177. WTH?! I have really good restriction, have been making good choices and can not get away from the freaking 177-179. It is really pissing me off. I want to see 175 or lower by Friday... is that really so much to ask?! I guess it is.

Grr...

First....

I am so jealous of the BOOBS! I wish I could have been there... it looked amazing! Secondly, I will not be missing next year even if I have to sell my precious jewels (o wait I don't have any). I am back from my conference but am leaving on Wednesday for another speaking engagement. I won't be back until the following Sunday.

On the band front... things are good. I have great restriction, am hardly ever hungry, and can get full on 1/2 cup. That is a first for me, and I sort of love it.

Happy Monday!

Wishing you all a great BOOBS!

Hope you all have any amazing time at BOOBS! I will be thinking of you all this weekend. I am happy to say I lost 4.5 lbs this weekend bringing me to a new low! I am also officially out of the obese category and into overweight. That feels wonderful!

My new fill is fantastic, and is keeping me right on track! I have also started working out again which is making a big difference.

Have a great weekend!

Wish I was going to BOOBS

But I am not.... sadly, I will be speaking at a conference about 7 hours away. I hope you all have a good time, but seriously... reading all your blogs is making me want to stick a fork in your eyes! :) Yeah, I am jealous!