Protein

I read a post about Protein on *I think* Dreams of Skinny High Heels blog. She was talking about how she got 100+ grams of protein a day. I also try to get about 100 or grams a day. I feel like I lose much better when I am getting more protein. So, I thought I would tell you all about my favorite little protein supplement. Protidiet, it is a drink mix with 70 calories and 15 grams of protein. It is sort of like a gel you mix into water and it tastes pretty good. I have tried most of the flavors but my favorite is orange. I usually drink 1 or 2 of these a day (I am actually drinking a mango peach one as I type) to get me to where I need to be with my protein. Now that I have good restriction I really can't eat before noon. This is the way I get my morning meal in and it sort of tastes like crystal light. I buy mine from mydietshopz.com.

Why?

Why do I always take one bite too many?! For the love of God... I need to learn to stop when I am ahead. Now I have that horrid upper back pain again. Grr...

If you don't have anything good to say...

I really haven't been a banner blogger lately. I am not sure why. I think mostly because I just don't feel like I have anything great or exciting to say. I have been par for the course with my band lately. Though I did some not so awesome eating over the weekend, I am pretty much on track.

I did see my therapist today and really feel like I could make some great progress with her. She is in my face just enough to push my limits (which is just what I need). I am scared to go back because I think she is going to push my limits and there are lots of feelings I have been avoiding.

In other news, my birthday is just a little over a week. The last year of my 20's!

Weigh In

And I have a loss of 2 lbs to report. I am creeping up on the 160s! I am so pumped!

Back to therapy...

I am a therapy hopper. I never stay, but I always go back... to someone new. This time I am seeing a therapist who deals only with eating disorders and eating related issues. (ME) I decided to go back because the longer I am on this weight loss journey, the more challenging I am finding things. Not just the weight loss part... but the "who am I?" part. I am not having relationship issues, or having problems accepting the change... I just don't know what I want.

I don't see myself at my current weight... I see myself as fat. I don't know what I want to weigh because I think I will always want to lose more. Don't get me wrong, I feel so much better.... but I still don't know who this new body is.

I also have some other issues.... I still can't figure out what to do with that hole that eating has left. I still want to turn to eating for comfort... but I really can't anymore.. it just isn't possible. I have a lot of questions for myself that I just don't know how to ask... so I turn to the therapist. Here we go again!

Happy Tuesday!

Just a quick note..

To say that I finally got below that 176 mark. I am now at 174.8! I finally met another goal and feel great about it! I am hoping to be 173 by next Friday... should be doable but I seem to be losing very slow these days. All my clothes are way too big lately. I had to buy a couple pairs of pants to get me by for work. I think I am going to have my mom take in a couple of sheath dresses the next time my parents visit.

Tonight I am going to a big birthday party for a friend. I am looking forward to relaxing and having a good time. I really feel like I can so much better of a time now at my weight. It isn't something I am constantly thinking about and I feel confident (most of the time).

Anyway, I have been so busy, I haven't been a very good blog buddy. I hope you all are doing great!

Freak'n A!

Okay, I am back from my conference/speaking engagement/mini vacation. I had a good time, enjoyed my long weekend and so on. I came home, stepped on the scale... 177. WTH?! I have really good restriction, have been making good choices and can not get away from the freaking 177-179. It is really pissing me off. I want to see 175 or lower by Friday... is that really so much to ask?! I guess it is.

Grr...