I Hate...

Winter. Grumble grumble.

Just a quick post

I have had a really nice weekend so far. I was supposed to get my Christmas shopping done but ended up attending an all day event at my tattoo artists studio yesterday. Every year she does a toy drive called Toys for Tats. I got an email from her on Friday saying I should go so I told my husband we had new plans. We spent all day at her shop and I came home with a fabulous new tattoo (as did my husband). I love love love well done tattoos and have big plans to continue to add to my body. So, with no further ado... my new tattoo.

P.S. All is realitively well in band land... I am still pretty tight and food can be a struggle.

It has been a busy busy week.

I haven't been at work because I was lucky enough to be chosen for jury duty. I ended up on a criminal case full of sexual assault and abuse. It was interesting to see the process of the court system. It was also a stressful experience, and pretty emotional. None the less, I am back and work and back to the real world. The good news is, I was so busy Monday-Wednesday, and had worked the weekend before, that I have been eating really good. I also dropped all the weight I had gained from the ice cream drama and a little more.

I am still aiming for 167 by Christmas. That is 6 lbs in 2 weeks. It may not be possible, but I at least think it is worth a try. If I can make it to 169 I would be really happy, and that may be more doable. My band is really tight this week, due to the always loved "lady time". I actually love having this one week a month where my band gets tight. I could probably not live with it this tight, but for one week I do a lot of liquids and mushies, and solids only at dinner. It works.

In other news, I am counting down to my 11 days off starting December 23rd. I need a vacation people!!

Do I hate my band today?

Lately I have been having this frustrated feeling sorry for myself thing going on. First off... since Thanksgiving I have been eating like shit. But, it is more because I am too lazy to find the things that work well for me and chew and take small bites. I hate babying my band. Lately, I just want to eat like a normal person. I am frustrated because my band has been temperamental.. but this is mostly because I am not following the rules.

So, I have been eating lots of ice cream. Ice cream never sticks and goes down like a champ no matter if I scarf it or eat is slow. There is no "small bites" involved. Now, some of you may be thinking that I need an unfill because there are classics symptoms of too tight. But... it is just classic laziness symptoms. And of course, I am turning to the ice cream to make me feel better too. I am not sure what my deal has been emotionally but I am not feeling like myself.

Today, I have been sticking with great yogurt and soup.. if I am going to be lazy, at least eat things that are not so calorie laden. So far it is working.

Thanksgiving was a good time....

too good in fact. I am up a few lbs again. However, I enjoyed my time with my family and ate some really fantastic food. Now back to living healthy... easier said then done!

My husband took this picture last night. I look very strange and short but it is the angle... at least I hope it is! :)

A little pissed.

So I have been working out hardcore for the past couple weeks. I have really been trying to do lots of cardio and sculpting. So I have been putting in a good hour each day. This morning I decide to step on the scale to see what little treat I am in store for... UP 1.5 lbs.

Now I know logically all the reasons this could happen... muscle gain, retaining water, not eating enough calories... blah blah blah. But for any and all of you who have had this happen.. it is just so frustrating. So.. I didn't exercise this morning. Instead I sat around watching tv and pouting. I wanted to get to 170 or lower so bad this week... yeah.. that ain't going to happen. And it isn't as if I haven't been putting in the work.

Okay.. so after all that whining, I am done. I am over this and will get back to the exercise tomorrow. I will stay away from the scale for a few more days and see what happens.

I also thought I would include this ridiculous picture of me and a co-worker/friend from last Friday's staff inservice. We were trying out a "turn around" technique for a perfect picture. Umm.. not so much. But hey... I look like a normal person (minus the face I am making)!

Gearing Up For Thanksgiving

I am recovering from a fantastic and fun filled weekend. Friday, after work, we had dinner with friends to celebrate my birthday (very late it was 10/29). We went to a delicious Indian place and had a wonderful variety of dishes. Then we went back to the other couples place and they had made the most amazing apple pie. This is my FAVORITE apple pie. It is made with.... bacon grease. Yeah... so not healthy but incredibly tasty!

Saturday we visited family and did some shopping. Yesterday was just a recovery day, we laid around and watched movies and bad tv. I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was 172. So, I actually woke up Sunday weighing less then Friday. This NEVER happens, so that was a good weekend. I have been working really hard to work out and eat well 95% of the time. I am hoping to get off a couple more pounds before the end of the week.

I am planning on eating whatever I want on Thanksgiving... I can't eat very much anyway.. but I will have dinner and desert. I am cooking and I plan to spare no calorie! I am doing some good old fashion home cooking!

Keep on keeping on all!