Still waiting...

Dealing with the insurance folks at my surgeons office has been painful.  My insurance just changed their requirements May 1st and it is making things more difficult.  Hopefully tomorrow I will have the answers I am waiting for. 

Take care all!

Waiting Game

I followed up with my surgeon today at his office.  He confirmed that I will be having a revision to sleeve as soon as possible.  The only hang up at this point it my insurance.  It will cover the procedure, but they are waiting to hear back to find out what documentation they need before I can move forward.  Hopefully I am not waiting too long.  I feel like I have no energy these days.  I am tired and hungry and feel gross.  I just want to be able to eat something non-protein suppliment.  I am excited to get rid of my band and hopefully have some long term/pain-free success with the sleeve.

I have been reading all your blogs out there in blog land and I am hoping you are all well!

Slip

It's official.  I have a slipped band that can't be fixed without surgery.  I am meeting with my surgeon on Tuesday of next week to go over options based on what my insurance will cover.  I believe my insurance will cover 100% of a sleeve revision which is my plan of attack.  I will keep you all posted.

New Day Same Shit

Last week I went back to my surgeon.  I can hardly eat anything solid... puke a lot and am miserable.  I have a Upper GI schedule for a week from tomorrow.  I am pretty sure I will learn the same thing many before me have learned... slip and band removal.  I have zero fluid in my band puke at least once a day on protein shakes and pretty much hate my life right now.  I have to be honest, I would strongly warn against the Lap Band.  So many of us have recently had serious complications leading to band removal.  I know it has worked wonders for some of you... but it has been a hard road for me.

Now I am just wondering what I will do.. I am thinking revision to sleeve, but I don't know if my insurance will cover it or if I even want to go through more surgery.  I am so frustrated and disappointed.  I am tired or hurting when I try to eat squishy foods.  O well... I soldier on.

Making Good Choices

I am still struggling... a lot. I have not gone back to my doctor which is very bad. I have, however, had three very successful days full of good choices. I have come to the conclusion that I can only eat thick liquids/soft foods before dinner time. I have been having protein shakes for breakfast every morning and soup for lunch. If I try to eat something more substantial.. I get stuck and puke. Then I am starving and eat ice cream because it is the only thing I can get down. I feel like there are more and more things I can't eat.

I am not happy with my band and have been talking about other options with my husband. I feel like this just isn't the way it should be working. My doctor seems hesitant to take out any fill because he is worried I will gain weight. I am still 22 lbs up from my lowest low.

Life, however, is just life as usual. I am enjoying all other things my life has to offer. I am more concerned with health than weight at this time... thought i would like to get back down to my low.

Anyway, best to all of you!

So I haven't posted in a long time...

Because I have not been living the band dream, or doing what I am supposed to.. and as a result... I am up oww 30 lbs from my lowest. I have had a lot of trouble with my band lately (as in the last year). I have had multiple unfills and fills and vomit a lot and have repeated issues with heartburn and reflux. There is nothing wrong with my band (or so they say). I have started seeing the PA at my surgeons office and she feels it is because of the aggressive fills my surgeon does. She thinks I need to start over very slowly and work my way back to restriction.

I also know a big chunk of the problem is me. I get frustrated and force foods I shouldn't, don't take time to let my band recover.. don't do liquids when I should and so on. So... here we are again at the start over point. I am okay with that. I have spent the past six months really struggling with the loss of my husbands grandma, who was extremely important to both he and I. She was more like a mother to my husband and myself as well.

We have also been under a lot of financial stress... my husband is a teacher and it seems they are the current political target and are apparently way over paid... We have both taken pay cuts the past few years and as things get tighter I seem to let go in other parts of my life.

I don't think I have been hiding from my blog, but more so too lazy to really care. I am going to try to recommit to my blogging in hopes that is helps keep me motivated. I also wanted to keep it real here is band land. This is so not easy... even with this big help.

I got a fill

I got a 1 cc fill today. As usual, I can't really see much difference yet, but my fills take about 2 weeks to fully kick in. I was down a couple pounds this morning. I have been working for that couple pounds. I am trying to recreate some of my "early success" menus that had the pounds falling off in the first year of my band. I think one of my biggest problems is my lack of fear. I no longer fear a stuck or pb situation. I try things I should probably avoid just to challenge my band. This probably goes with my whole authoritative issues. I have always been one for challenging the limits.

It is almost the weekend! Yeah for weekends.