8 weeks exactly today

I am 8 weeks out from surgery today. I am so happy with all the things I have already gained and the weight I have already lost. I did weigh myself this morning, though it wasn't my official weigh day. I planned on weighing myself tomorrow morning to see if I made my next goal, but instead did it today. I am happy to say I have made that goal. I was down to 224lbs this morning. I lost 2.2 lbs in less than one week. This makes for a grand total of 35 lbs down in 9 weeks (including my pre-op diet). I am thrilled with this loss and hope to keep up the pace. I can't wait to get in the 21_ number range, and I am starting to feel the excitement of being under 200 lbs. I am hoping to get there by Christmas but that is a hefty goal.

Anyway, I feel so much better about myself. I work out every day, eat healthy, and am enjoying the life I am living. I have my moments of not-so-good, but the majority of the time I am proud of the journey I am on. I don't deprive myself, I don't feel like an outcast, and I feel normal. All in all, these have been 8 great weeks.

Thank GOD I got Monday out of the way!

I worked both Saturday and Sunday this past weekend and feel like I haven't had a break! I work full time so when I add an additional weekend day in it makes for a long week. The good news is I ate really well all weekend. I didn't have much time to screw around so I stayed on the straight and narrow. Thursday is my birthday and the impending visit from my parents have me thinking about eating off track.

This is where things get a little scary for me. I want to be able to relax and enjoy good food once and a while without stressing. I don't want to feel guilty, and I don't want to have unrealistic expectations. Sounds like the my appointment with the therapist tomorrow is just in time.

Fill scheduled

I am the one in green, and those are my wonderful parents, and my sister.




Yesterday I was at the grocery store when I got the call from my doctor's office. They were finally able to schedule me for my fluoro fill next Friday the 30th. Thank God! I need some back-up here, and my empty band just ain't doing it!



Wednesday my parents are coming to stay with us (they live 8 hours away) until that Saturday. Now, part of my weight problem came from those two fabulous people and I worry how things will go when they are in town. This same topic seems to be coming up on many of the LB blogs lately. I don't think my parents intentionally sabotage, but yet they do still sabotage. Add into this equation that Thursday is my birthday and you have the makings of a disaster!



Friday I will have to be on liquids all day, so that will save me some calories, and Thursday I work late, so that helps as well. But that still leaves the rest of the time. I have a plan, now all I need to do is follow it!

Friday Weigh In

Another 2.8 lbs down this week! I am at a grand total of 32.8 lbs down! I am getting there!

Happy Friday all!!

Therapy Session

Today I went to my weekly therapy session. I love these sessions. I really like my therapist and I feel like I really make great strides each visit. I feel like really getting to know myself is what is making the difference this time. I obviously have very strong feelings about food and there are reasons behind those feelings.

I am learning to cope with my new lifestyle and to treat myself with the respect I deserve. The largest challenge is learning to forgive myself for not being perfect. I need to still be able to be me and be healthy and moderate. I am impulsive and passionate by nature so tempering these wild sides takes work, and I don't want to deny them completely. My therapist has helped me to understand that there was never anything wrong with "me". Th problem only lies in how I handle my feelings.


Anyway... all is well... tomorrow is weigh in. Still no news on my fill appointment (grumble).

Today I am exactly 7 weeks post-op and still no fill

I haven't heard back from the doctor's office yet about the date for my fluoro fill. I am annoyed. I was looking forward to this fill to refill my fear/motivation meter. I know I probably won't have any more restriction but that still doesn't mean I won't have serious fear of getting stuck and pbing. That keeps me on track perfectly for at least a few weeks.

I did get up this morning at 6 am to work out before work. It felt so good to get it over with before work instead of having to think about doing it after work. It was 45 minutes of step aerobics and I had a giant sweat ring around my neck when I was done. I will probably take the dog for a nice long walk when I get home because the weather is amazing here today.

My fill= zero fill

So I went in for my first fill today. The whole experience was a bit rough. My appointment was at 9:45 but the doctor had a last minute schedule change and was going to be out of town this Friday so he double booked today. I didn't get in the exam room until 11. Then he attempted to fill me not once, not twice, but three times with no luck. It was sort of painful but mostly disappointing because I need to get started with these fills.

He was very apologetic and it was fine but now I have to wait for the nurse to call me and reschedule at the hospital so it can be done under fluro. I had to go straight to work after my appointment so I brought my lunch with me this morning. Of course I was planning on liquids so that is what I brought. Since there was no fill there was no need for liquids. So I stopped at the store and scrounged together some stuff for lunch. Blah.... an overall sucky appointment.