6 Weeks Post-Op Weigh In

I am 6 weeks post-op today and 30 lbs down!  I lost 4.2 lbs this week.  I didn't think I would make it to the 30 lb mark by today, but I am happy I did.  I even got a bonus .2 lbs to add to that 30.  I swear to God, adding in more calories and carbs knocked off another 1.5 lbs over night. 

Lipstick I love

Two years ago I made a New Year's resolution to wear lipstick.  I am not sure why but I had seen all these fashion blogs with beautiful lipped girls and I wanted to be one of them.  I tried for one day and after all the reapplying... I gave up.  Until this week when I read about this Revlon ColorStay Ultimate Suede lipstick.  I swear to you.. it is amazing.  I have heard the darker colors are better than the lighter ones, I used a very berry pinkish color called Couture.  I love this stuff.  I had read about it on another blog and had to try it.  It does not disappoint.  It lasted through 2 meals, 9 hours of work and many bottles of water.  I probably should have reapplied midday but it still looked good even though I didn't.... Just a touch lighter.  I am not getting paid to blog this (I wish) and this is just from my experience.  It isn't very expensive.. and worth a try.

Follow-Up Finally.

I had my one month follow-up today... a little late as tomorrow I will be 6 weeks.  All went well and he was very happy with my weight loss.  I had no complaints so my visit with the surgeon was brief.  I did want to talk to the dietitian to ask a few questions. 

My doctor's office is different from most in that they don't really tell me to count carbs and they are not a fan of super low calories.  Today I was told I need to eat more.  The dietitian said I need to be getting 900 calories a day at this point.  She said the only other thing I need to worry about is getting 60-80 grams of protein and drinking lots of water.  I am not going to lie, I am relieved to hear she wants me to eat more.  I really have no problem getting 900 calories in throughout the day.  I had been sticking to 600-800 and my loss wasn't as impressive as it had been when I was eating 1000-1200 my first few months after my Lap Band.

I am also happy that they feel carbs are important and long as I am getting in my protein they want me supplementing with fruits and veggies and other good for me things.  I want a balanced diet (as balanced as 900 calories can be).  I will be interested to see how this impacts my next week of weight loss.  Anyway, I will weigh in tomorrow and update the old ticker.

We are getting some really crappy weather here in MI... and I am tired from working all weekend.  I am already waiting for the weekend!

The Dr's Appointment That Didn't Happen, and Eating More

So my 1 month follow up was supposed to be yesterday.  Though I am already moving on to 6 months post op next Wednesday and past my one month.  I didn't end up going because the weather was really crappy and I drive about an hour to get to my surgeons office.  I am now going for my 1 month on Tuesday. 

Last night we had a bunch of people over and it was a drink fest with lots of pizza and alcohol and cookies.  I ended up eating about 1300 calories yesterday... first of all, it is amazing I was able to do this.. but between 2 glasses of wine, a bunch of peanut butter m&ms and 2 chocolate chip cookies... the deed was done.  I didn't have pizza cause I am still on soft food... cookies are not considered soft food.. so that was just plain cheating.  I am not sure what got into me but I think all the self pity and annoyance over food issues got to me.  The funny thing is, is that it got my weight loss moving again.  This always seems to happen with me.  Now keep in mind this is the first time I have had more than 800 calories in nearly 6 weeks and that I am fully aware that I can not make a habit of this.  So, today I am back to eating my usual high protein low carb low cal diet.  I am not going to lie... I enjoyed it.

Happy Saturday, I am working.

Weigh In Week 5

As I mentioned in my previous post, the weight loss was not very impressive this week.  I lost a total of 1 lb, however, in 5 weeks that brings me to 26 lbs lost which equals 11% of my total body weight and 26% of my excess weight.  When I look at it that way, I feel much better.  It is also an average of  5.2 lbs a week which isn't bad at all.  I am setting my next goal for 35 down by week 8 which will be March 13th.

I see my doctor on Friday for my 1 month follow-up (a little late) and I hope he is pleased.

I hate myself and everyone else today

A bit dramatic right... yeah.  I am not sure what is wrong with me but I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.  My husband is home on midwinter break (he is a teacher) and I have to work.  I wasn't going into work today until noon.  For some reason, him being there threw off my morning.  I also forgot to take my zoloft last night, am still having back problems, and I haven't lost any weight in the last week.  I want to eat normal people food and not have to plan complicated stupid meals for myself.

Ok, now that I have whined... let me get real.  I know I will not lose weight every day or every week.  I know I lost 7 lbs last week which means I probably won't lose much this week.  I know I am learning to eat again and that this is all a process.  I know I am not being rational.  But, today, I feel sorry for myself, and I hate the person I saw in the mirror.

My husband asked me why I was having a bad morning and I burst out crying.  I told him I hate myself today and I just want to eat something without thinking about it.  I know I am being hard on myself... I know I need to stop, but I am giving myself permission to feel this way today.  I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, I am just keeping it real.

Wednesday Weigh In

4 weeks post-op today and down 25 lbs.  I had a giant fantastic loss of 7 lbs this week!  About time after the crap losses I had the two previous weeks!