Doctor + fill= ?

Yesterday I saw my surgeon again. He wanted to do a fluroscopy and check out the band. Again, he said everything looks perfect. However... things are not perfect. I have gained about 10 lbs. Not good.... I have been feeling angry towards my band and I have been busy self sabotaging. He gave me a 1.5 cc fill and I can tell a huge difference. He actually started out with 5 cc (I was totally empty) and the barium came flying out like a bullet out of high powered riffle.

This is all so strange because I had 7.5 at one point and was at my sweet spot. The doctor claims this is not unusual and that peoples fill tolerance can change over time. I am feeling better about things and am ready to get on the losing end of things again. I have only been able to eat small amounts, about a cup at a time, and I am staying fuller longer. The best part about the band is that is always offers you an opportunity to start over. So here it is... my do over.

Still alive...still sticking

My band is driving me insane. Some days I have no restriction and other days I am stuck on weird food. My band is still entirely empty, still apparently in perfect location with zero issue and continues to make me crazy.

I haven't really lost anything more weight... though I really need to.. I am struggling to just figure the basics out. I am frustrated and tired of this. I am also really busy with life in general. I have been spending lots of time with friends and family. I just don't feel like blogging about my band lately, because I kind of hate it. Grr...

Take care all!