Friday, September 27, 2013

Weigh in/ fat bitch

First of all, I had an amazing week for weight loss.  I weighed in this morning at 176.  That is a 3 lb loss!!  I am not sure what I did to make this magic happen, but I am thrilled!  I am only a couple pounds away from a BMI under 30... which will mean overweight and not obese.  That is extremely exciting.  I am also creeping closer to my goal.  I thought it was time to add a photo, so I took one this morning.  My face looks a little odd but it is hard to concentrate on taking a photo and smiling at the same time.  This isn't the most flattering dress in the world but I really like it.

On to the fat bitch portion of this post.  Last night at work a teenage boy called me a fucking fat bitch.  It was a strange experience because it made me feel, just for a moment, the way I felt in middle school and high school.  I wasn't even very fat... I was 164 lbs in high school.  Now a little over 10 lbs heavier, it was kind of terrible... for a minute.  And then I realized that I am pretty okay with my body, and he was a stupid teenage boy looking to hit me where it hurt.  The part that bothered me the most is that he said this in front of a teenage girl who was with him.  I hate that this is the go to for hurtful comments.  I hate that she heard that and probably starting thinking negatively about her body.  Anyway, I am going to clarify.  I am not a fat bitch.  I am a bitch who has lost over 80 lbs and is strong and healthy.

Saturday, September 21, 2013


Wohoo!  Sitting at 179 lbs!!  Down 1 lb this week!  Out of the 180's and a solid 80 lbs down from my highest.  Now just to keep the losses coming.  I would like to be at the 100 lb down mark by my 1 year.  That means 20 lbs in just a little less than 4 months.  That should be doable... but there are A LOT of holidays between now and then!

Happy weekend.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Update/Weigh- In/Ugh

Got up this morning, stepped on the scale and expected big things.  Got a 1 lb loss.  This would have been fine for me if I hadn't spent the last week working my ass off and eating a perfectly glycemic friendly low cal diet.  I seriously thought I would at least drop a couple pounds... but no, just one.  I get it... It will show up, I can feel it in my clothes.  But damn-it!  I wanted to see it on the scale.  It doesn't help that I am 1 lb away from the 170's and I am so over the 180's.  O well, I will just keep plugging away.

It finally feels like fall here in Michigan.  I love fall.  It is my favorite season of the year.  I broke out a new sweater just to celebrate.  Now, I just have to stay away from the cider mills with their amazing pumpkin donuts!

Happy Friday.