Thursday, May 31, 2012

The Irony of My Life

I am still at the no new news point of my day.  I have been in contact off and on with my surgeons office, my surgeon, and my insurance company.  Tomorrow I am going to get my letter of surgical support from my primary.  I feel like I am back at day one of Lap Band surgery.  I also have to have another psych eval.... what if I don't pass?!  Are they going to refuse to take out my band... so stupid. 

Anyway, I am stuck in a place of no one being able to give me the answers I need.  I am not sure if my insurance is actually going to cover the Sleeve (though I have a friend who just had a sleeve revision after her band slipped at a different hospital with the same insurance as me) or if I will have to get rebanded/nobanded.  I would like to go on record and say, "my Lap Band has not been kind to me."  Sure we had one good year... but is has pretty much been downhill from there.  I am tired of this evil little monster making me miserable. 

Here is the ironic part.  My surgeon's office mentioned (without mentioning) that I might want to gain a few pounds to bring my BMI up.  I can only have liquids.  I had a milkshake and some cheesecake (not a liquid but somewhat doable) for breakfast... got on the scale... and down 3 pounds from the last time I weighed myself.  This is the first time anyone has ever given me permission to gain weight... but I can't eat solids.. and I am actually losing weight.  Is this the universe laughing at me?!  I think so.

I am not sad or angry or even really disapointed that my band slipped.  It just wasn't in the cards for me this time.  I just would like to eat a salad. 

All you super stars keep on keepin on!

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Still waiting...

Dealing with the insurance folks at my surgeons office has been painful.  My insurance just changed their requirements May 1st and it is making things more difficult.  Hopefully tomorrow I will have the answers I am waiting for. 

Take care all!

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Waiting Game

I followed up with my surgeon today at his office.  He confirmed that I will be having a revision to sleeve as soon as possible.  The only hang up at this point it my insurance.  It will cover the procedure, but they are waiting to hear back to find out what documentation they need before I can move forward.  Hopefully I am not waiting too long.  I feel like I have no energy these days.  I am tired and hungry and feel gross.  I just want to be able to eat something non-protein suppliment.  I am excited to get rid of my band and hopefully have some long term/pain-free success with the sleeve.

I have been reading all your blogs out there in blog land and I am hoping you are all well!

Friday, May 18, 2012

Slip

It's official.  I have a slipped band that can't be fixed without surgery.  I am meeting with my surgeon on Tuesday of next week to go over options based on what my insurance will cover.  I believe my insurance will cover 100% of a sleeve revision which is my plan of attack.  I will keep you all posted.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

New Day Same Shit

Last week I went back to my surgeon.  I can hardly eat anything solid... puke a lot and am miserable.  I have a Upper GI schedule for a week from tomorrow.  I am pretty sure I will learn the same thing many before me have learned... slip and band removal.  I have zero fluid in my band puke at least once a day on protein shakes and pretty much hate my life right now.  I have to be honest, I would strongly warn against the Lap Band.  So many of us have recently had serious complications leading to band removal.  I know it has worked wonders for some of you... but it has been a hard road for me.

Now I am just wondering what I will do.. I am thinking revision to sleeve, but I don't know if my insurance will cover it or if I even want to go through more surgery.  I am so frustrated and disappointed.  I am tired or hurting when I try to eat squishy foods.  O well... I soldier on.