Friday, November 8, 2013

Missing: My Motivation

Let me start by saying I have gained a couple pounds.  My birthday was the end of October and I haven't been back on track since.  I just can't find my motivation.

 It is so much easier to have a social life when you can just pick up and go out to eat and not worry about only eating what you planned for lunch.  Having a glass or two of wine each night is so relaxing.  And... I have so enjoyed not obsessing about food.

However, it is time to get back to work.  I need to shed the pounds I put back on and try to get a few more off.  Part of my problem is that I have gotten to a weight where I sort of like my body and like the way my clothes fit.  I think I look pretty good.  Sure, I would love to lose another 35 lbs... even 10 or 20.  But that means I really have to work for it.  I remember this feeling when I had my band.  I got to roughly this same weight and thought, "I could just work at staying right here".  Of course, I still have days where I think I am disgusting and fat and hate myself and then I just feel bad for ever being okay with my current weight. 

Ugh, this whole weight loss this is such a head game. 


TracyZ said...

I totally could have written this post myself. My weight loss has been crawling and it makes it hard to want to be focused on continuing toward a lower weight. It makes it even harder when most days you feel good about yourself (not that anyone wants to have more days where you feel bad about yourself)!

You're still less than a year out from the sleeve. Don't give up yet!

Beth said...

I was banded in November of 2008, and it definitely helped me with the first 50 or so pounds, but I've been working HARD at losing weight now. I hovered around 240 or so for a few years -- sometimes dipping a little lower than that, only to go back up again.

I separated from my husband earlier this year, and I've lost about 50 pounds since Christmastime last year. However, I've been tracking calories and exercising 5 to 6 days a week in order to do this. The band helps me from overeating, but that's about it. The rest is all me.

Good luck to you. :)