I am down 5 of the 8 lbs I gained over the holidays. That means still 3 lbs to go. I am making progress, eating better, exercising, tracking my food. That doesn't mean I am perfect and that this is easy. I have had a few less than good days. I have eaten chocolate, had too many drinks, and maybe even a cheeseburger. But.. I am making progress.
The weather is really making me struggle lately. It is SO cold, and so snowy. I think it is ramping up my seasonal affective disorder. I have been really anxious and stressed lately. I have also had some minor life drama that seems to be adding to it. Don't get me wrong, I am not making excuses for the way I am eating. However, when I look at the whole scope, I can see I am still using food as a coping mechanism.
When I was seeing a therapist I remember talking to her about using food as a coping tool. She explained to me that it isn't entirely bad as long as I am only doing it when I have no other tool to cope. She said to keep it in my "tool belt" for emergencies. I think I have cut back a great deal on food as comfort, but I am not sure I will ever be able to cut it out for good.
I am working all weekend which also makes me feel sorry for myself. There is no reason I should feel sorry for myself. Many people work weekends, I knew I would work weekends when I was doing my Masters program. I am a big baby.