Monday, August 12, 2013

Back from vacation/Family reunion

I am back to work after a 1.5 week vacation.  Vacation may not actually be the right way to put it.  We were at my parents place in the upper peninsula of MI.  They live on a beautiful lake and it looks like a vacation local.  However, we were there for a family reunion.  It was my mom's side of the family and there were about 60 people there.  Some of my cousins I haven't seen in 15 years.

I ended up doing a lot of prep, cooking, cleaning to help my parents get ready for the reunion.  My sister's family was also there and she has 3 kids so it was a little insane.  My temper gets very short when I am around chaos.  I am a little bit of a clean freak, and to put it nicely, my sister's family is not overly concerned with neatness.

Overall, we had a nice time.  I was happy to see my family, but I was more than ready to come back home.  I ate like shit... drank too much and came home with a 3 lb weight gain.  I am hoping now that I am back on track, it will be "fake weight" that won't stick around.

I know I said this not too long again, but I am going to say it again.  This weight loss thing is still really hard.  I hear so many of you talk about how you go on vacation and you come back with a weight loss... I have had 2 bariatric surgeries and have never had that experience.  Granted, I am not as committed this time around... I am going on 4 years out since my first surgery and I just don't have the same intensity I did in 2009.  I still love food, I still have to tell myself to make the right decision every day.  I make the right decision a good majority of the time and I know that makes me successful, but it will never be something I don't have to think about.

I come from a family where food is love and I enjoy eating.  I have been in therapy, talked about this in depth and am aware of my demons.  I know when I go home I am sucked right back into "eating rituals" and indulgences.  When I come back to my adult life I have to drag myself out and get back on track.  That may not be normal, but it is my life and I have to deal with it.  I am pretty good at it and often feel relieved to get back on a normal eating schedule.  At nearly 7 months our from my sleeve, I realize the rest of my life my weight battle may be easier.. but not easy.  I am still really looking forward to getting back into the 170's for the first time since my band.  I know I have to work a little harder now that I had this small gain... but I know I will eventually get there.


TracyZ said...

I wouldn't worry about going on vacation and coming back with a small gain. I think that if I were down in your weight range, the same would happen to me. I think when you are at a lower weight it is much, much easier to gain weight. Even at my weight now, a fluctuation of 300 calories a day for 5 days in a row totally stalls my weight loss. Any more than 300 calories for a couple of days in a row and my scale starts going up. I can only imagine how small that calorie number would be if I weighed 30-40 pounds less!

I totally agree with you on the feelings of being 4 years out from your initial surgery and not being as "excited" as you were that first year. It is different to be a second time post-op, instead of a brand new patient. I just keep telling myself that this is a life long fight, not something that I am going to "finish" in 12 months and never worry about again. It doesn't matter how long it takes us to get to goal, it just matters that we take the steps we need to take to move closer to it!

Theresa aka Tessie Rose said...

You look so cute!

Beth Ann said...

I almost always gain on a vacation. Most "normal" people do. Do not sweat it. Onward! :)