I am back to work after a 1.5 week vacation. Vacation may not actually be the right way to put it. We were at my parents place in the upper peninsula of MI. They live on a beautiful lake and it looks like a vacation local. However, we were there for a family reunion. It was my mom's side of the family and there were about 60 people there. Some of my cousins I haven't seen in 15 years.
I ended up doing a lot of prep, cooking, cleaning to help my parents get ready for the reunion. My sister's family was also there and she has 3 kids so it was a little insane. My temper gets very short when I am around chaos. I am a little bit of a clean freak, and to put it nicely, my sister's family is not overly concerned with neatness.
Overall, we had a nice time. I was happy to see my family, but I was more than ready to come back home. I ate like shit... drank too much and came home with a 3 lb weight gain. I am hoping now that I am back on track, it will be "fake weight" that won't stick around.
I know I said this not too long again, but I am going to say it again. This weight loss thing is still really hard. I hear so many of you talk about how you go on vacation and you come back with a weight loss... I have had 2 bariatric surgeries and have never had that experience. Granted, I am not as committed this time around... I am going on 4 years out since my first surgery and I just don't have the same intensity I did in 2009. I still love food, I still have to tell myself to make the right decision every day. I make the right decision a good majority of the time and I know that makes me successful, but it will never be something I don't have to think about.
I come from a family where food is love and I enjoy eating. I have been in therapy, talked about this in depth and am aware of my demons. I know when I go home I am sucked right back into "eating rituals" and indulgences. When I come back to my adult life I have to drag myself out and get back on track. That may not be normal, but it is my life and I have to deal with it. I am pretty good at it and often feel relieved to get back on a normal eating schedule. At nearly 7 months our from my sleeve, I realize the rest of my life my weight battle may be easier.. but not easy. I am still really looking forward to getting back into the 170's for the first time since my band. I know I have to work a little harder now that I had this small gain... but I know I will eventually get there.