Woot Woot!

I am not just down 75 lbs, but 76.2 lbs! I had a great number on the scale this morning!! 182.8 lbs which means I am creeping closer and closer to the 170's! I will post update photos soon!!

Not so sick anymore... finally

2008, 225 lbs
2009, 259 lbs
2008, 199 lbs

2007, 189 lbs

So, I am finally starting to feel better. I slept through the night last night for the first time in nearly a week. I got up this morning and I didn't feel groggy or too ickish. I even took the dog for a nice walk this morning around 8. It was so beautiful here, I just couldn't resist. I hadn't really left the house much for the past 5 days. It felt so nice to have some sun on my skin.

Unfortunately, I had such a sore throat over the past week I ate crappy things (ice cream mostly). It was all about what felt good and not so much about what was good for me. I did wake up this morning with a loss and hope to continue on the losing streak now that I am feeling better. I am only .6 lbs away from 75 lbs down. It is funny, I always wonder when I will feel like a "big time" loser. First I thought 50, then 60, then 70 lbs. I was certain 75 lbs would make me feel like I had accomplished something huge... which I do... but not in the way I expected.

It is strange... because I haven't always been fat... but I have always been trying to lose weight. I had mentioned before that the first time I went on a diet was my freshman year of high school and I was 164 lbs. I wasn't thin by any means, but I wasn't huge either. At the time I felt huge. At my highest weight, before surgery, I was 259 lbs. When I met my husband in 2001 I was 186lbs. I thought I could use to lose some weight then too but I wasn't obsessed... I was in love. When I got married I was 152lbs... I wanted to lose more, but honestly, I felt amazing. Looking back, I also looked really good. By the time we went on our delayed "sort of" honey-moon six months later I was 192 lbs. I was always aware of my weight and I always wanted to lose more. I also always compare where I am now to what was going on the last time I was at that weight... like now... I am about the same weight I was when I met my husband.

I am still waiting for the moment where I look in mirror and can't believe it is me... but I have seen myself at so many sizes, it is never that surprising. I think the most shocking mirror image was when I was 259lbs. I didn't feel like that person and it didn't look like me. I am thrilled with how far I have come. I feel so much better, have more energy, enjoy things more, and don't constantly stress about food. But I don't feel much different from the Annas of the past. I wonder when, or if I will.

I am SO sick!

I haven't been around because I am suffering from a killer case of influenza. I went to the doctor on Monday and seem to be feeling worse each day. Blech... stay healthy all!

Still holding on...

to that 1lb up. I was back down to 186.8 today... hopefully I can kick off that extra pound plus another before the week is over. I worked out really hard this morning, hopefully I will see it tomorrow!

The scale said what?!

Up 2lbs! I jumped on the scale this morning to check out my amazing progress... I have been 100% back on track... but I was up 2 lbs! I know it isn't real, but seriously?! O well! Happy Hump Day!

Back on track and kitty chemo

So, we have been taking Sophia (our cancer cat) to a veterinary oncologist (doesn't it even sound expensive) for the past few months. She has been having chemo treatments after she had her original mammary tumor removed. As I said before, she now has a new lump. Today I had to take her back to the oncologist to have them look at it. They did agree that it is a recurrence.

We talked about how to handle it and they gave me some good options. The first was a radical mastectomy with an equally radical price tag. He said this surgery should work well for her but that no matter what someday this cancer will kill her. The thing is, we just can't afford this surgery. It is MANY thousands or dollars and it will be a really hard recovery for her.

I was pretty upfront with the vet and told him we can't afford the surgery. He then told me he thought we could have great results with switching to a different chemo. The hope is to push her into remission and give her some good quality of life time. It could be years, it could be months. All that is unknown.

I feel better today knowing we have a plan.

On the food front, I have been really good about staying on track. I bought some of my favorite protein standbys today and feel pretty good. I really really want to get another 6-8 lbs off in the next few weeks. Easier said then done!

Hope you are all well!

This is very interesting

Here is an article from Psychology Today about Stress Eating... I think it is very interesting!