Tuesday, June 1, 2010

June 8th?!


Okay, so the doctor's office called me back today to let me know that my appointment for my upper GI will be at 8 am on June 8th! June 8th!!! That is a week away. I know really... a week isn't THAT long to wait. But it so is... I am struggling here. I had hoped I could get in before the end of the week.. but of course.. no go.




I am hungry all the time. It isn't head hunger... it isn't emotional eating. I am hungry. I know I am eating things I wasn't eating before.... because I can. I have had lots of bread and know I need to cut back on that again. I am so scared I am going to get off track and will have to do all this backpedaling once I have restriction again.




When I was going through the first 6 months of bandster hell I had lots of motivation and that helped to keep me on track. Now that I am almost 9 months into my weight loss, it is so much harder to find motivation inside myself.


I know all I need to do is go back to the "band rules" and in theory I should be good to go. But I feel so out of control. It is amazing to me that after all the weight loss, after being so happy about the progress I have made, that I can still let food have such a hold on me.


I have a plan.. but now I need to follow it. Seven days... I can do anything for seven days right?!

10 comments:

Nella said...

It will be here before you know it. Try and stay busy...you can do it!

workinprogress said...

Yes you can!!!! It sucks big time - but you can do it. Just goes to show how fantastic the band is when it's working for you!

Nawlinz Lady (Dee) said...

There are so many foods that are off limits to me now because of the band and alot of them are healthy! ie. Fresh fruits, whole wheat breads and cereals, even alot of veggies are all but impossible. Why not try to enjoy some healthy alternatives that you were not able to eat while banded!

You Can do THIS!

Barbara said...

I know you must be going crazy, but how about making some thick delicious protein shakes (treat your self and scoop something sinful) but they are filling and will hold you over..

Hang in there..

Kristen said...

Dig deep girly! You know you have it within you to hang in there- like your dr. said you didn't come this far to go backwards. You will be so relieved once this week is over with and you can indeed find out if anything is wrong,and hopefully get filled right back up! Take this unfill as a challenge, and challenge yourself to loose/maintain for the next week! Mke it into a fun little game- anything to make it go by faster!!

Girl Bandit said...

Just follow the rules...it is not a diet so include some things that you have been missing...hang in there andlet's pray that you can get filled up soon

Gen said...

I totally hear you - 9 months out and the motivation is much harder to come by. You can do it!

amandakiska said...

How frustrating! I hope the week will pass quickly for you. Try to step up your water & exercise and I bet you won't get too far off track!

susieq4givn said...

hang in there, you can do this! get back to small protein high portions, lots of water and get moving! good luck!!

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