Thursday, October 28, 2010

My birthday is tomorrow

and I am trying to wrap my mind about a new way of thinking. I haven't been blogging much, or even reading blogs because I am really trying to focus on myself. I am confused about my feelings about this whole weight loss experience. I love my band... love that I have lost nearly 90 lbs, and feel amazing. However, I just don't know if this was what I thought it would be. As I had said in a previous post I am seeing a therapist again. I really like here and feel like I had a major "ahah" moment this week.

I think I am going to take a break from the numbers, take a break from the scale and just live my life. I spend so much time counting calories, obsessing about what I am going to eat, and just not trusting myself. It is time for me to learn how to trust myself, rely on myself. So my goal is to try not to weigh myself for two weeks. I am going to just do what feels right and see how that works. I am going to just be me.

I hope you are all doing well! Have a great end of the week.


amandakiska said...

I quit counting clories over the summer and I'm so glad I did. It is AMAZING to be able to eat and live and still lose weight without putting a bunch of effort into it. Our bands give us that gift and it would be a shame not to take advantage of it.

Rachel said...

Happy Birthday!!! You have done so great...I hope therapy brings you insight...And I hope thing this year brings you many blessings!

Read said...

Happy Birthday! I'm sure trusting yourself will work out fantastically. Good luck and I hope you have a really great birthday.