Adjusting and thinking...

I was thinking about a post Amy W wrote about motivation. I looked back at my weight loss ticker history today and realized I have been bouncing up and down the same 7 lbs for 5 months. I lose the weight, I gain the weight, I lose the weight, gain... on and on. I started thinking about why I can't just kick this weight for good. Granted, I have had lots of problems in the last few months. I have been frustrated and hungry and struggling.

I am adjusting to my current band situation and seem to be doing okay. I can certainly eat more things now, but I still have to be really cautious with lunch choices. I am telling myself I really rededicating to get the rest of my weight off, but I am having a hard time believing it is true. I have said that so many times over the past 5 months. Part of the issue is that I think I am just enjoying living my life. I am very social, always have plans, and am not nearly as thoughtful with calories. This is terrible for weight loss, but great for life. I am also relatively happy at my current weight. I know I am still technically over weight and I can see that, but this is the thinnest I have been in a long time.. and I feel normal.

So why is it I want to lose the weight? Well, I want to finish what I started, I want to be healthier, I want to succeed. And, of course, I want to wear smaller clothes and be more confident in the summer.

Happy hump day all!

The results are in...

I saw my doctor on Friday for an Upper GI. He didn't see anything wrong with my band. He decided to look back at my 4 previous (yes 4) films from past Upper GIs and said everything looks identical from my first film 6 weeks after I was banded. However, my band is not acting the same way it has in the past with zero fill. It is all very odd. I still have pretty good restriction, I wouldn't say sweet spot, but it is certainly there. I still couldn't eat a sandwich or anything on a bun, however, I can eat a piece of bread with dinner if I am careful.

He doesn't know why my band is acting this way, but he also doesn't want to do anything else right now. He said if I have any pain or more issues to contact his right away but that he thinks it is just best to leave it right now. He said if I get to a point where I want a fill he will only do them under fluro from now on.

So... this is all a new challenge. Things that used to be difficult are no longer and things that were sliders are now sticking. I don't know what to think, but I am going to try to work with this and see if it is just stress or my own issues.

Update

I am having my Upper GI Friday at 8 am. Hopefully I will have an answer by 8:30 am Friday. In other news, I am wearing neon yellow tights today and I love them.

Take care!

Still waiting and puking

I called the doctor's office again this morning to follow- up on the upper GI. The woman I talked to told me she would call me right back. That was 3 hours ago. I am continueing to have trouble keeping mushies and solids down... liquids aren't a problem. I don't feel like it is an emergency but I do want to get the ball rolling.

If I don't hear back today I am going to call my Dr on his cell. My weight is still going down, but it is slow. I have a pretty carb heavy diet because I am only eating soft foods. I am just happy I am not gaining at this point. The weather is finally getting really nice here in Michigan and I am enjoying outdoor activities more and more.

Take care all!

Thanks for the Love

Thanks for all the great and supportive comments on my bad band post. I truly treasure my followers!!

Still waiting..

I am still waiting to hear back from my surgeons office about my Upper GI appointment. I am quite tight still... need to eat mushies until dinner, but I am making due. I did lose a good chunk of weight this week. I had gotten back up to 179.8 and lost nearly 5 lbs of that this week. I am trying to keep myself motivated while going through the trials of band issues.

I am counting my calories and trying to stay active. It is hard though, when I can eat so few things and just want sliders all the time. I am looking forward to seeing my doctor and getting some answers.

Happy Monday (if there is such a thing)!