A little pissed.

So I have been working out hardcore for the past couple weeks. I have really been trying to do lots of cardio and sculpting. So I have been putting in a good hour each day. This morning I decide to step on the scale to see what little treat I am in store for... UP 1.5 lbs.

Now I know logically all the reasons this could happen... muscle gain, retaining water, not eating enough calories... blah blah blah. But for any and all of you who have had this happen.. it is just so frustrating. So.. I didn't exercise this morning. Instead I sat around watching tv and pouting. I wanted to get to 170 or lower so bad this week... yeah.. that ain't going to happen. And it isn't as if I haven't been putting in the work.

Okay.. so after all that whining, I am done. I am over this and will get back to the exercise tomorrow. I will stay away from the scale for a few more days and see what happens.

I also thought I would include this ridiculous picture of me and a co-worker/friend from last Friday's staff inservice. We were trying out a "turn around" technique for a perfect picture. Umm.. not so much. But hey... I look like a normal person (minus the face I am making)!

Gearing Up For Thanksgiving

I am recovering from a fantastic and fun filled weekend. Friday, after work, we had dinner with friends to celebrate my birthday (very late it was 10/29). We went to a delicious Indian place and had a wonderful variety of dishes. Then we went back to the other couples place and they had made the most amazing apple pie. This is my FAVORITE apple pie. It is made with.... bacon grease. Yeah... so not healthy but incredibly tasty!

Saturday we visited family and did some shopping. Yesterday was just a recovery day, we laid around and watched movies and bad tv. I weighed myself yesterday morning and I was 172. So, I actually woke up Sunday weighing less then Friday. This NEVER happens, so that was a good weekend. I have been working really hard to work out and eat well 95% of the time. I am hoping to get off a couple more pounds before the end of the week.

I am planning on eating whatever I want on Thanksgiving... I can't eat very much anyway.. but I will have dinner and desert. I am cooking and I plan to spare no calorie! I am doing some good old fashion home cooking!

Keep on keeping on all!

What I have eaten/will eat today...

Okay, so since we are all talking about what we eat... here I go. I am not very exciting and eat sort of strange but I think that is sort of standard for Lapbanders. Also, my restriction has loosened slightly so I am able to eat cereal again and I have been enjoying it for breakfast.

Breakfast: 3/4 c Honey Nuts and Oats with Almonds and 1 c skim milk

Lunch: 3 ounces chicken breast chopped up with 2 cups lettuce, cucumbers and Asian Sesame dressing

Snack: low carb chocolate slim fast (This is a creepy guilty pleasure, I love this crap)

Dinner: 3 ounces chicken breast chopped, 1 boiled egg chopped up, craisins, 2 cups lettuce, cheese, and Raspberry Pecan Dressing

I don't usually eat salads 2x a day but I wanted to use up the rest of the lettuce, and I work until 9 tonight.

I will say... salads are sort of standard for me.. I love them and they go down well. I often also eat soup for lunch because I am pretty tight that time of day.. and often Greek yogurt for breakfast. I also eat tuna out of the can mixed with some mayo and chopped pickles, anything I make for my husband (spaghetti, lasagna, stir fry, tacos, chili) all made with white meat. I rarely eat red meat.. not because it is a problem but more because I got out of the habit. Also, pasta has never been an issue for me... no matter how tight I am.. in fact it tends to be a slider.

Welcome to the gun show...

Or not actually... but being that it is nearly Thanksgiving I thought it would be a good idea to start telling the blog world what I am thankful for. 1. I am thankful that my arms made it through 86 lbs of weight loss with minimal damage. Yeah that wobble a bit... but hell, I love them.

What Can I Say?

I have been doing super well during the work week and then pretty much blowing it all on the weekend. So.. I am pretty much just maintaining right now. I am annoyed, but I know how to fix it, and I am not devastated. October starts the "holidays" for my husband and my family. We have a birthday or holiday every single week October- the first week of January. I am just enjoying myself too much. I really need to step up the working out to make up for the eating crap. But... I am too busy enjoying life. I did have a fill scheduled for tomorrow and even though a small tweak might be good.. I know that really isn't the problem.

The other issue is that my therapist wants me to focus less on the weight loss and more on my relationships with food. This sometimes entails eating things on impulse for the mental benefits. I just don't know... it is hard when she wants me to do one thing and the surgeon is telling me something entirely different.

All in all... I am happy... I like me... and though I would love to be 30 lbs lighter, I know I will get there eventually. It is okay if it takes a while. I will admit... I still want to be 169 by Thanksgiving and I could totally do it if I would stop screwing around on the weekends.

Cheers to Hump Day!

Happy Friday!

Wohoo! I am so excited it is Friday. I have worked the last 7 days and I am exhausted! I weighed myself this morning and I am back down all but .8 lbs of the weight I gained. I feel a great deal of relief! I was worried it was going to take weeks to undo what I had done. Hopefully I can get off another 3 or 4 lbs by Thanksgiving.

So yesterday I quickly went shopping on my lunch break for a new something to wear with a pair of leggings I bought on a whim. I didn't have anything to wear with the leggings... well nothing appropriate at least. So.. I found a really cute long tunic and I had the perfect pair of boots. I decided to wear this outfit to work today and OMG... everyone commented on how great I looked. I really think it is because I have been wearing clothes that are way too big. I probably look like I lost 10 lbs over night because my clothes actually fit today. The bonus to this outfit is that it is outrageously comfortable! I will try to remember to have my husband take a picture of my tonight when I get home so I can post it.

I will need to try to do some more shopping this weekend.. I really need a few things that fit. I feel SO MUCH BETTER in cl0thes that actually fit me.

My restriction has been really strange. I am extremely tight right now and getting full fast. It is great except that in the morning liquid even kind of hurts the first couple of drinks. I am pretty sure this change in restriction is because of my special lady time. It is interesting.. since my last fill each day is a new adventure. A couple weeks ago I ate a sandwich... on a pita.. which I haven't been able to do in a long time. O well, I am going to enjoy the restriction while it lasts!

Happy Friday!

OMG, I need new clothes...

Everything feels too big!

Yeah... the five day pouch test... just kidding

I didn't even make it through an entire day of the pouch test. I made it all day at work and then got home and felt TERRIBLE. So... I ate a big salad with chicken and cheese and nuts. A good choice... just not my original plan. I decided I was not going to try for day two today. I am not sure why, but instead I have been back on the calorie counting track... so far so good.

I forgot how bad liquids sucked.

5 day pouch test

I have been wanting to give this a try for some time now... this week seemed like the perfect time. I don't know what my deal is lately but I have been pbing quite a bit lately. I think it is because I keep trying to eat foods that just don't work (toast in the morning) drinking while eating... ect. I also think I have gotten into a nasty cycle of pbing... eating... pbing because I am swollen, ect. It is just so strange... I had excellent restriction a couple weeks ago... then one day... much much less.

I did weigh myself this morning to get an idea of where I am at so that I can compare with my post pouch test results. I am up.... up about 5 lbs. This freaks me out because it just sort of proves that I can't trust myself without the regular weighing and calorie counting. I will have to talk to the therapist about this tomorrow.

So, anyway... today is day one of the pouch test. So far I have had a sugar free pudding, a protein drink, and I am currently sipping on chicken broth. I am also trying to get lots of water in. Hopefully by the end of this pouch test I can get things back to normal... stop the pouch abuse and lose some of the lbs I have gained.

Happy Monday!

Catching Up

I had a very busy weekend, my parents were in town and we celebrated my birthday (for three days straight). I did a lot of eating, not always good choices, but hey... my birthday only comes once a year. I am now trying to get myself back on the straight and narrow so that I can have a few good weeks before Thanksgiving eating comes about.

I still haven't weighed myself, but from the way my clothes fit, I would say I am staying right about the same... with maybe a few pounds gained from the weekend. I am not planning on weighing myself again until November 16th and I hope to see at least a small positive change by then.

I have had a really weird change in restriction. I have loosened up considerably and made an appointment for a fill. However, I am sort of liking the fact that I was able to eat 1/2 piece of whole wheat toast and an egg for breakfast (which has stayed with my since I ate it at 9 this morning, no lunch yet). I feel like sometimes I get so tight I am limiting good foods out. Of course when I have less restriction I must use more self control to make good decisions. I purposely scheduled my fill a couple weeks out.. the 18th... so that I could decide what I really wanted.

That is pretty much all I have to report! Hope you are all great, I am going to get to reading the blogs now!

Size 12!

I found this really great size 12 dress in my closet I bought a couple years ago as a goal dress for one of my failed diet attempts. I put it on today and it is perfect. Sorry about the blurry picture... my battery died mid photo shoot!