Normal

We had a staff training on Monday and there were lots of pictures taken.  I was looking through them today and all the pictures of me were okay.  I looked normal.  I didn't look fat or uncomfortable.  I wasn't avoiding the camera, and I wasn't stressed about seeing the pictures.. but I was still pleasantly surprised when I saw myself.  I look normal.

Nearing Month 9

I am coming up on my 9 month sleeve post-op-aversary.  I had another good loss this week.  I am down another 2 lbs.  I am down 72 lbs in nine months, and 85 from my highest pre-band weight.  That is an average of 8 lbs per month.  This last month I have lost 6 lbs and I am thrilled with that!  I also hit another exciting milestone today.  My BMI is officially under 30 and I am no longer obese and am just plain old overweight.  In the next 3 months I would love to lose another 10 lbs.  That should be doable, and would bring me 5 lbs from my goal.

I am so happy with my sleeve and the freedom it allows me.  I am so pleased with the life I am leading.  I still have days where I get so frustrated and realize how hard weight loss really is, but I think I am understanding how my body works (for now).

Happy weekend!

Weigh in/ fat bitch

First of all, I had an amazing week for weight loss.  I weighed in this morning at 176.  That is a 3 lb loss!!  I am not sure what I did to make this magic happen, but I am thrilled!  I am only a couple pounds away from a BMI under 30... which will mean overweight and not obese.  That is extremely exciting.  I am also creeping closer to my goal.  I thought it was time to add a photo, so I took one this morning.  My face looks a little odd but it is hard to concentrate on taking a photo and smiling at the same time.  This isn't the most flattering dress in the world but I really like it.

On to the fat bitch portion of this post.  Last night at work a teenage boy called me a fucking fat bitch.  It was a strange experience because it made me feel, just for a moment, the way I felt in middle school and high school.  I wasn't even very fat... I was 164 lbs in high school.  Now a little over 10 lbs heavier, it was kind of terrible... for a minute.  And then I realized that I am pretty okay with my body, and he was a stupid teenage boy looking to hit me where it hurt.  The part that bothered me the most is that he said this in front of a teenage girl who was with him.  I hate that this is the go to for hurtful comments.  I hate that she heard that and probably starting thinking negatively about her body.  Anyway, I am going to clarify.  I am not a fat bitch.  I am a bitch who has lost over 80 lbs and is strong and healthy.

Update/Weigh-In

Wohoo!  Sitting at 179 lbs!!  Down 1 lb this week!  Out of the 180's and a solid 80 lbs down from my highest.  Now just to keep the losses coming.  I would like to be at the 100 lb down mark by my 1 year.  That means 20 lbs in just a little less than 4 months.  That should be doable... but there are A LOT of holidays between now and then!

Happy weekend.

Update/Weigh- In/Ugh

Got up this morning, stepped on the scale and expected big things.  Got a 1 lb loss.  This would have been fine for me if I hadn't spent the last week working my ass off and eating a perfectly glycemic friendly low cal diet.  I seriously thought I would at least drop a couple pounds... but no, just one.  I get it... It will show up, I can feel it in my clothes.  But damn-it!  I wanted to see it on the scale.  It doesn't help that I am 1 lb away from the 170's and I am so over the 180's.  O well, I will just keep plugging away.

It finally feels like fall here in Michigan.  I love fall.  It is my favorite season of the year.  I broke out a new sweater just to celebrate.  Now, I just have to stay away from the cider mills with their amazing pumpkin donuts!

Happy Friday.

Week 31 Update

Week 31 has come and gone.  I did lose the last pound I gained on vacation.  It took me about two weeks to gain the weight and about that long to get it back off.  I am lucky I was able to lose that last pound because last week was full of eating.

Our "go-to couple" took us out to eat at Michael Symon's Roast which is amazing and pretty darn pricey.  We have only been there a handful of times because my husband and I are cheap and have a hard time spending $250 on a meal for the two of us.  But let me tell you, everything on the menu is incredible.  I had "the beast of the day" tacos which just happened to be suckling pig.  I also had some mac n'cheese and some fried brussel sprouts which I always dream about.  I also sampled everyone elses food.  There was much wine and even some dessert.  It was a great night for a foodie like me.

It is my husband's birthday Thursday as well as our anniversary.  It feels like we have been celebrating with friends and family for the past week and will continue to celebrate this week.  I am working on keeping portions small and making the best of each meal (making healthy choices).  On Thursday when we go out for our anniversary/birthday dinner all bets will be off.  We are going to a fantastic seafood place and I am getting what I damn well please.  Tomorrow we have a giant work potluck and I plan on ignoring it.

My husband will be back at work full-time next week and I plan to get my eating strapped down then.  I am ready to start losing again and have some good motivation.  My husband is in a wedding the beginning of October and I would like to feel great in a new dress.  I am not putting a number on it... but I am going to do what I can between now and then.

Have a great week all!

Week 30/ 7 Month Update

There is good news and there is bad news this week.  The good news is that I lost 2 lbs of the weight I gained on vacation.  The bad news is that I didn't lose all the weight I gained.  The goodbad news is that I lost 3 lbs in the last month.  That is not very stellar at all, but it is still 3 lbs.  I would like to lose at least 4 lbs a month.

The summer is always a much harder time for me to lose weight.  People always say summer is ideal because there is fresh produce and you are outside more and blah blah blah.... but for me, it is a much more social time of year.  We travel, take vacations, attend parties, and just do more stuff.  This month is also my husbands birthday and our 10 year anniversary.  We aren't planning on doing anything big but there will be some special meals I refuse to deny myself.  My husband is a teacher and he is home in the summer... something happens when we aren't on a normal schedule.  We eat much less ideal.  So, he goes back to school the first week of September and that is when things are going to get real for me.  Don't get me wrong... I am going to try to stay on track and lose some weight in the next few weeks.. but I expect the serious work to begin in September.  I would like to be 175 by October 5th.  That seems like it should be doable.  That is roughly 8 lbs in 7 weeks.  But to actually get there I need to start kicking ass and taking names.

The other piece of good news... I am wearing an adorable dress today.  It is an xl and I am working it.  It makes me very happy.

Have a good weekend all!