I just got done reading Gwen's blog. She had a great post with a link to an article by Roger Ebert about not being able to eat due to his illness. He talks about what he misses and how it isn't really the food but the experience. Gwen follows this post up with her own commentary about her loss of the eating experience.
This topic hit home. It was almost like I finally understood for the first time why I feel sad, why I miss "food". I realize now it is more about the feeling of eating with others, eating in places, the smells and sounds, and no just the food. Yeah, I can still do these things, but not in the way I have been doing them for years. I also have new feelings about eating. I worry about PBs, getting stuck, what people think when I am eating and so on.
Don't get me wrong, I am so glad I had the surgery. However, I still miss the old way of eating.